Thursday, March 22, 2007
*counting* hw many days haf i been staying at home? ans : 3 days.. i will seriously go crazy at tis rate.. im realli surprised tt i can survive from my mum's endless nagging for e past few days.. her naggings nv once stopped, it juz go on n on.. i dunno why, why is she trying to ctrl me when im already 22. she dun realli care for me when im still a lil girl, does she? so wats e point for showering me wif her care n concern when im already tt old...
sitting here, crestfallen, feeling real sick n crappy.. i just wanna vent all my unhappiness n frustrations out.. my headache is killing me.. n e freaking fever dunwan to subside. are realli on e verge of breaking down.. i nid my ciggs, badly.. i noe i did sae tt i wanna quit smoking, but seriously, smoking can realli make me forget my stress for a short moment.. i realli nid a holiday, utterly.. i just wanna b free frm all these sickening probs for juz a little while, is it realli tt hard?
glancing thru my past sms.. memories filled my whole mind.. i tot i can b very suave.. juz leave without a trace.. but yes, nw i noe, i simply cant achieve tt.. i realli wanna b strong.. but under all these circumstances, i can only b weaker n weaker.. vin smsed me last nite.. called me BABY n etc.. i realli haf no idea wat he wans frm me.. we r over, dun we? so why is he keep showering his affections on me nw? he din cherish me in e 1st place.. so why is he coming back to me once again? is too late for regrets... my heart for him has been dead decades ago..
oh man, cant realli blog at e moment.. am realli dying frm my illness.. realli cant stop sneezing at e very moment.. arghs!! just hope i will recover in no time..
[learning frm mistakes helps prevent the repetition of negative patterns.]
-imissyou; utterly-
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
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