Sunday, September 28, 2008
has started working at ttsh for 1 week already... compared to iras, e schedule there is much more hectic. e past one week has been disastrous... i have to start from scratch and there's a hell lots of things to learn... but luckily for me.. colleagues there are all very nice... they helped me alot... to make me feel comfortable and adapt to e new environment... and good news, i have found 2 more clubbing khakis at work! happy :) planning to hit e club next week as to celebrate one of my colleagues's birthday!
so has been busy till sat...so only met baby after work yesterday... went over to his house.. it has been weeks.. so at 1st everything was fine... watched "money not enough 3" with him... but i felt like crap when midnight hits.. seriously dunno why... thus i gave him ap once again~ and he nearly spent e whole night trying to cheer me up... felt guilty... cos he spent his precious sleeping time to make me happy.. and he's like so tired at work today~
baby laogong, i am so sorry... but yet i still wanna thanks u for ur understanding~ u are the best thing that ever happened to me! love u so much!!! =)
tomorrow is weekday yet again! dreading to go to work!!!! =(
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
5:32 PM
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5:32 PM{your name};
Sunday, September 21, 2008
a brand new start, a brand new beginning... tomorrow i will be embarking on a new journey.. starting my work at ttsh.. excited yet not really looking forward to it.. cos seriously i have not mentally prepared myself for e new environment, new faces and of cos new job scope.. i can feel all those butterflies in my stomach.. causing a turmoil here and there.. dreading to start everything anew.. but yet i can no longer stay put in my previous company.. i hope i can brace thru all e obstacles that i will be facing in e near future.. and to do my job well.. and maybe mind my own business.. it will be hard for sure, but hope i will be able to achieve that tiny weeny aim of mine...
maybe i am just too stressed over getting a new job.. adapting to e new environment, and thus i have been giving baby tons of craps yet again.. solemnly i apologize, i seriously din do that on purpose... i am trying... very hard to gain control over my emotion.. trying to be a sensible grown up who will stop acting like e childish brat.. its hard.. damn hard.. and i guess somewhere or there, some of my actions did backfire. sorry baby, pls pardon me, i know u are already trying ur best to adapt to my temperate behaviour.. baby, i promise u... i will change... for ur sake, i will seriously try my best to change... :)
celebrated estee's bdae today... went sakura for their buffet lunch... ate quite alot, and maybe that's why i am feeling bloated at e moment.. enjoyed myself quite abit today.. so overall, everything's great...
chubby hasn't been feeling very well lately.. she puked almost everything she had eaten... worried for her, and hope she will recover in no time... =/
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]9:47 PM
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9:47 PM{your name};
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
i am happy. contented. and finally relaxing... cleared e misunderstanding with baby. he's not e one who takes initiative to add her up.. apparently is that particular person added him up. why can't she change her sickening behaviour? always go around adding my frens to her list.. what is she trying to achieve? to let other people thinks that she's super popular cos she has tons of frens in her list? why can't she wake up her idea? stop being a wannabe and face e reality?
last but not least, i wanna apologize for all those craps i have given to my baby for e past few days.. thanks for toleranting me again and again.. thanks for ur endurance.. and thanks for treating me like ur precious.. =)
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]8:50 PM
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8:50 PM{your name};
Monday, September 15, 2008
i am so not me... pondering over e same old questions yet again... e hurt creeps up onto me softly, killing me slowly.. i dunno why i will feel that way... he just added that particular person and i m feeling e pang of jealousy.. why is that so? i seriously have no idea.. maybe i know what that particular person is capable of... and i really dunno what drawn him towards her... her sexiness? her cleavage? or what? what is there that she has that i dunhave? why is he attracted to her? why is it HER again?
maybe she's e one who added him.. maybe is not he takes initiative.. but i just hate e thought that they are linked to each other.. even though maybe they are merely frens.. i know i am exaggerating stuffs here yet again.. cos he has added many other female sexy creatures before her.. but maybe thats it... i blew my top, lost my cool... i just cant accept e fact that is HER and none others..
how i wish i can just shut myself off with all other ppl... i just wanna isolate myself.. i am so sick of facing myself, facing my jealousy...............................................
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]6:04 PM
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
hasn't been blogging for quite some time.. cos has been busy looking for jobs.. yeaps, planning to change job.. and i got it.. as a patient associate at ttsh.. e pay is not bad.. with allowance and etc.. so overall, government job still rules i guess.. e coming monday will be heading down for medical check up, den will be starting job on 22nd. planned to tender my resignation on this coming monday, and well, wednesday will be e last day with iras.. and finally i can relax till sunday! happy.. cos finally can have a change of environment.. but of cos, i will miss lynna and mard to e max! but hopefully we can still meet each other for lunch...i am very happy lately.. cos i have wonderful bf and frens with me all e while.. they are always there when i need them.. cheering me up when i am facing problems and etc.. especially my sweetest baby love.. i just love him so that much.. and after so long, my mum finally get to see him.. and so far so good, everything has been great..
hua and shun came over to my house last night.. cos my family are back in msia.. we played with candles and lanterns.. and baby arrived.. hua and shun went home at ard 1am.. while baby spent e night over at my house.. so well.. its a sweet and loving night i must say.. :)
last but not least, baby noes cutecute (zenics). they were gd frens in e past.. oh well.. i must say e world is so small yea? time to go back to slp.. i am still feeling very tired... nights ppl~
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]11:34 AM
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11:34 AM{your name};
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
disappointed; that's all i can say... there's no way i can hide my disappointment. i thought everything will be great, but apparently it isn't.. i wanted and waiting for something to happen.. but yet it turns out to be just a normal day.. maybe is me being sensitive all over again.. or rather maybe i am just expecting much much more den last time...
i dun mind e past few months, seriously i really don't... but dunno why, today seems very important to me.. maybe cos is THE DAY. but maybe to him, is just a very normal day...
i waited patiently for today to arrive.. but yet.. he called way after 12am.. i know.. that he went to bathe before that.. i know he din do that on purpose.. so why am i feeling so down at e moment? i know he's tired.. i know that at least he made an effort to call and remembering e day.. i understand that we both need to work.. i understand that we wun have e time to go out dating n etc.. i know all that! so why?! why am i still so unreasonable and uncaring?
sometimes i really think that i am not worthy for anyone's love.. i am just so unfeeling at times.. and i seriously feel shameful bout it... maybe anniversary really means alot to me.. or rather maybe i am just finding yet another excuse to let myself get out from this situation...
-happy half yr anniversary to us ヅ-
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]7:54 PM
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Monday, September 1, 2008
the big day is coming and i seriously can't wait, even though i doubt that there will be any celebration.. but still, i am anticipating the arrival of THE DAY.
-ilovejohnny; now always n foreva-
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]7:27 PM
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