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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

things haven't been going rather smoothly for me i guess.. there are some disputes and commotion going here and there.. stressing almost everyone there.. despite my greatest efforts of trying not to get involved, i still did eventually..

work's kinda slack at the moment.. probably cos its still not the peak period yet, thus we din have anything much left to do.. u can roughly see all of us taking our own sweet time trying to accomplish our tasks.. sometimes if we din plan or manage our time well, we will have tons of time left for us to kill.. yes, i know u all will envy me or whatsoever, saying that all these are easy money, just sit there slacking yet i can still get paid.. but that's what killing me.. i seriously don't know how to entertain myself in order to kill the boredom..

today as usual, most of us were trying very hard to keep our eyes wide open.. trying our very best not to doze off.. and i must say that's such a difficult task to accomplish.. how i wish there's a bed right beside me so i can just jump on it and sleep.. but yet, i managed to keep myself awake till 5pm, all thanks to perhaps jeremy (ah xiong) <-- he asked me not to call him by that name but i don't really care. =p anyway, its really a pleasant surprise that he contacted me once again.. i once thought he has totally forgotten bout it.. apparently he still remembers me cos he bumped into me on sun night while i were on my way to club. i guess that's how fate toys people. we live at the same blk, and on the same floor, yet its like so damn hard for us to see each other. yet when we are going to forget bout each other, we accidently bumped into each other once again..

saw this guy whom i always seen at the gym.. hua sent me home last night, and there he was, standing there, waiting for the lift.. he turned and saw us.. and he's like trying to act cool by checking his mailbox and etc.. but apparently his actions gave him away cos when we walked past, he was like staring at us all the while.. was so funny that i nearly burst out laughing.. glad that i am still be able to control myself for that very moment.. and hua was trying to be funny by teasing me and listing out all the impossibilities.. shall not elaborate any further..

can't wait to go to club once again.. my taste buds are missing e taste of liquor very badly.. gonna get myself real drunk this time round.. am going down to debeers's company on this coming sat.. and he texted me last night to ask me go msia with him after the meeting.. but am not very interested.. am just craving for club at e moment.. alright guess that's all.. my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier.. guess i will hit the sacks soon... ^^

[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]8:00 PM
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Monday, February 25, 2008

i am back to my old lifestyle once again.. trying to get drown in e alcohol to numb my pain. has been drinking non-stop last week, and i am actually enjoying myself.

met up with zenics on fri night. he brought me to his new penthouse.. and i am really amazed. its real huge, and we can see e stars and moon, and there's his own jacuzzi and bbq pit.. and he was asking whether i wanna stay there anot.. and he's gonna pass me 2 f1 tickets. cant wait for e day to come.. he's such a sweetie. =))

went clubbing with debeers on wed night.. doing nothing much except slacking around and drinking.. drank quite abit that night, but am sad to say that i din get drunk eventually.. sat night went clubbing once again with debeers, shun, ting and richard... and yea, in e end shun, ting and me got drunk. and is seriously drunk. shun is e worst among us, he kept puke non-stop and feeling giddy all over.. but i enjoyed myself to e bits.. feels so high and getting drunk helps keep my mind from all e misery. yesterday night went club again.. yea.. i know.. 3 times in a week.. but i don't really care, i just wanna get drunk.. that's my ultimate aim.. went with debeers, ting, shun, hua, heng and iris.. but is kinda boring last night.. except from e very fact that a very cute waiter came over to chat with me and ting.. and he's so macho and boyish looking.. i din get drunk in e end but i overslept this morning.. luckily jeffrey din reprimand me for that.

will be working under debeers soon.. am really excited and nervous bout that. but he promised me that i will be under good hands, so yea, i trust him for that.. hope everything will turn out fine for me, and hope i will earn as much money as possible..

vincent asked me whether i am still willing seeing him.. told him how i feel, and i guess he got it..

i got no time to talk bout love anymore.. just money money and money... =))

[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]8:18 PM
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Monday, February 18, 2008

i am feeling so lazy to blog lately. just cant drag myself up and update this pathetic blog of mine.. currently my mind's in a whirl, so i seriously don't know what to blog.. this tends to occur whenever i want to blog... pouts.. don't know what e hell is happening to me..

went to rent a car with shun and hua few days ago.. is a nissan sunny.. not a bad car i must say.. and we just drove around for spin.. and thus losing quite alot of sleep for e past few days.. so i guess i look like a panda at e moment..

as for sat, went for sy's bb man yue. en ting is seriously such a cutie.. saw quite alot of people there.. but seeing everyone bringing their other halves there, i am simply depressed. i guess i do need a bf.. i guess i do need someone outta there to love me.. i need a shoulder to cry on when i am share, and i also need someone to share my happiness and sorrows with me. but well, guess all these can't be rushed.. i can only take my own sweet time and wait for right one to come along..

vin texted me yesterday morning.. din bother to reply him at all.. really don't what to say to him.. simply clueless.. after all these lies, i guess i do hate him quite abit. and i seriously don't need him back to my side. we are history.. there's no way i can act as if nothing has happened. i will just let time to heal all my wounds..

will be going out with zenics this coming friday.. kinda look forward to it as he really has his ways to cheer me up.. and most probably this will be e very last time i meeting him since he's going to vietnam to work soon.. guess i will miss him quite abit...

guess that's all.. seriously don't know what to blog next.. i am feeling so sleepy.. yawns..

[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]7:38 PM
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Monday, February 11, 2008

first of all let me wishes all of you a happy happy lunar new year! hope all of u will get tons of angbaos this year!!!!

just came back from malaysia two days ago.. i must say is kinda boring this year.. e same old yearly routine, just sat around and slack. gambling, eating, chatting and that's all. really sick of this yearly routine.. really don't feel like going back anymore. saw leong's gf for e first time. to be frank, i prefer e first gf to this one. but well, what matters is leong likes her. but seriously, she does have some serious attitude problem.. but never mind, i shall keep my comments to myself. e only enjoyable thing there is i was able to drive around freely. and that's really fun! speeding on e roads like nobody's business.. truly enjoyed myself for that!!!

vin texted me when i was still in malaysia. but i din bother to reply at all. he called me once i reached sg, but i din pick up once again. after that he texted me once again, claiming that he missing me alot, asking for a meet up. and that's it. i blew my top. asking him to stop bothering me when he's already married. hahaha, and he claimed that he knew that i knew it. and telling me that they are already on separation, and asking me to go back to his side. i asked him why he don't want to tell me e truth right from e beginning, and he gave me damn lame excuses. i am really sick of his stupid lies, never will i believe him anymore!

last night went to bernard's house to eat steamboat. yew, shun, huat, ting, hua, aaron and huay were there too. really enjoyed myself with their company. had tons of fun.. even though i lost some money on gambling.

last but not least, sy's bb 1st month will be on 16th of this month.. that will be this coming sat! cant wait to see all of them n of cos my beloved en ting!

guess that's all.. kisses and misses...

[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]1:27 PM
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Sunday, February 3, 2008

pics of sy's baby dotter. so cuteeeee!!!

[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]7:50 PM
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he chatted with me just moments ago. i am surprised that i din scold e f*ck outta him.. i am astonished by my own performance. i have remained so calm and graciously chatted with him as if nothing of those sorts had happened.

as usual, he was asking me how was my life getting on and whether i am suitable for e clothes he had for me. just gave him some very brief and short answers, and try to be as cold towards him as possible. frankly speaking, i seriously don't want to have any connection with him anymore. as what e saying goes - once bitten, twice shy. and i have been bitten by him for way too many times that i seriously hate myself for being so idiotic.

two more days to my birthday... i am seriously not looking forward to it. to me, after that fateful incident on my 21st birthday, celebration doesn't mean anything to me anymore. and i hate to be one year older once again.. as for e oncoming cny, i am not looking forward to it too, except maybe e collection of ang baos. and i really dread to go back to msia.

anyway, tuesday will be going out with justin to celebrate my birthday.. and wednesday will be back in msia.. will be back on saturday i guess... just hope i will enjoy myself during e msia trip..

mum bought me a guess bag for my birthday. simply love it to e bits.. aawwww, that's so sweet of my beloved mummy. muackies, love u lots!!!

[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]1:09 PM
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