Monday, October 27, 2008
things are certainly getting better, at least for now.. at least he will take e initiative to call me once again.. i can say i am extremely glad for better change in e situation.. i will choose to look on e brighter side, so that maybe, i can keep myself happy for quite some time.
went over to his place on saturday night. poor baby was sick, bought him dinner and our fav drink of all times - pokka green tea. din manage to do much things with him as he's still sick, but at least i can be with him. and that's all matters!
last night went to have a seafood feast with my family and him.. overall not bad... e food there was quite okie.. and e price was not that expensive.. still affordable.. after e dinner, he went over to my place.. and spent some quality time with me... not a bad night, at least he managed to spend some time to get together with my family..
i am quite certain that he's e one i wanna be with for e rest for my life.. not sure bout his opinion thou.. just hope we can brace thru every obstacles we will be facing in e near future...
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
7:52 PM
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7:52 PM{your name};
Thursday, October 23, 2008
its time to address all my insecurities..
maybe its just me being over-sensitive again, but maybe that's not e case. i felt, somehow, he has changed. after he came back from e taiwan trip, he has somehow becomes a different person. or rather, he's back to his old self, back to e times when we have lots of conflicts and disputes. he has once again, became e aloof guy.. e one whom i can't figure out what he's thinking at most of times, e one who will treat me coldly at some of times, e one who will never put me as his 1st priority in his life.
maybe i am thinking way too much as its time of e month yet again.. but sorry, i really can't help but feel that i am being neglected. for e past few days, he never take initiative to call me at all.. or rather after i stayed over at his house, after we discussed bout our marriage, he changed. maybe he's still not ready after all.. maybe its all one-sided affair of my own.. maybe i am just not e one..
all these thoughts are driving me crazy.. now i know why i'm suffering from insomnia for e past few days.. now i know why e crave of ciggarettes has increased rapidly.. now i finally understand.. i guess i have been giving him tons of stress.. maybe to e extend that he thinks that i can't wait to marry myself off.. maybe cos of these he's scared, or maybe rather afraid to face me..
i am sick of all those assumptions... i am sick of making myself go crazy pondering all those question marks in my mind... and guess what? i am so afraid... so scared that he will bring out that two dreadful words, again.
and yet, i still love him, so damn much. even more than i love myself..................
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]8:48 PM
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8:48 PM{your name};
Sunday, October 19, 2008
i am back! weekend passes in a glance.. din do much for e past few days.. just that went dinner with my supervisor and colleagues on last friday.. went "li bai restaurant" at sheraton hotel.. ms tan treated us.. and u know what? e food there is simply heavenly! especially their "beijing roasted duck", just so finger lickin' good! after e sumptuous dinner, went to meet shun and hua.. slack ard and chit chatted till around 12plus den went home..
last night went over to baby's house yet again~ had korean food this time round.. yea i noe.. is heavenly food yet again~ i cfm will gain weight at this rate of eating! but nah, i dun really care... times with baby are really happy and enjoyable.. discussed bout our future last night, planned to get married in next year during xmas.. that's bout 1 year's time.. so right now, muz work hard and save tons of money~! baby bought me some taiwan speciality while his brother bought me a very cute mickey mouse candy box from hongkong~!
-im just so in love with you;-
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]2:45 PM
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2:45 PM{your name};
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
its only 2nd day w/o baby by my side, and i am already going thru hell.. feel so uneasy when i cant hear his voice every night.. days have been dragging by.. and i am totally moodless to do anything.. i just miss him; terribly!
he called me twice from taiwan last night. but still, its not enuff.. i won't get tired listening to his voice! he called me once for asking me what type of heels i want.. den 2nd time just asking me to sleep early.. yup, hes that sweet! he always is! i noe 5 days will pass in a glance.. but seriously, i feel dreadful now! maybe is cos of my illness, but i doubt so.. i guess its just that he's not around... how i wish friday will come in a blink.. so that i can be in baby's embrace once again... :(
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]12:55 PM
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12:55 PM{your name};
Sunday, October 12, 2008
feeling crappy for e whole day, mainly cos am not feeling well at e moment.. e rumbling stomach and frequent runs to e washroom is driving me nuts.. guess i am suffering from food poisoning.. threw up almost everything after i ate them, and i am having diarrhea too.. will be seeing doc tomorrow.. and that means i will be getting mc!
this week has been sarky.. cant really handle e pressure from work.. but luckily baby is always there for me.. bracing thru every obstacles with me.. he has always being that sweet.. that's why i love u, so so much! but seriously, working at ttsh is really nuts, too many situations and circumstances for me to handle.. and its getting out of hand... hectic work schedules, endless phone calls, and messy appointments.. ahhhh! i don't think i can survive without baby's support!
baby will be hitting taiwan tomorrow morning! for one whole week! ahhhh... gonna miss him to e very max! :( hope i can withstand e lonliness without him by my side.. and hope he will enjoy himself and of cos remember my heels! hahahaha..
-you're everything that i ever wanted; Mr and Mrs Lin-
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]7:24 PM
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7:24 PM{your name};
Sunday, October 5, 2008
firstly, let me wish my beloved baby and myself a very happy 7th month anniversary! time flies.. i'm with my baby laogong for 7 months already! all these times are so happy... he's simply awesome, treating and pampering me like his precious! all his thoughtful little actions make my day, showering me with his love, care and concern~ so yea, i am so deeply in love with him! he's my everything~!
went over to his house on friday night, which is of cos 3rd of oct.. and that of cos marked our official date! but we somehow had some disputes in e middle of everything.. but he forgave me yet again.. touched, he's always so understanding and caring towards me.. but still, i wanna beg for forgiveness.. felt guilty.. and truly i apologized..
last night went pubbing with shun, hua and heng.. went happy daze.. quite an enjoyable night.. stay there till 3am.. but still, i miss clubbing session! wanna get high and drunk yet again! ^^v
and lastly, baby got me a digital cam! so yup, thanks my beloved! muack muack :)
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]8:25 PM
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8:25 PM{your name};
