Saturday, December 20, 2008
tiring week for me. work work work and more work! has been working like non-stop.. e hectic working schedule, e never-ending flow of patients and endless phone calls. need to give myself a break, totally in need of that.. am falling sick real soon, lack of rest is e culprit of it!
went club on last sun.. went fabulous yet again! saw chen han wei.. and nothing surprises us since we all know his sexuality. quite a boring night since e music is such a no-no for me, sat there for nearly e whole night and i was freezing to death. e only happening thing was e fashion show, that was totally high!
planning to hit e club on xmas eve.. friend will be holding a xmas party at stjames.. will be going with rah n frens! its been so long since i last clubbed with them, totally lookin forward to it!
din manage to meet baby this week cos he need to go back for reservist. am feeling real upset cos of it. and my moodiness is like coming back to haunt me. shit! i just hate this yet i just can't control my emotion! =(
baby will be bringing me to e zoo next saturday! am anticipating it! after such a long wait i finally get to go to e zoo! hehe! am just so happy! yes i know i do sound like a kid now, but i dun care! i am just overjoyed! im sure i gonna enjoy myself to e very max!!!
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
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Monday, December 8, 2008
i wanted to be perfect.
to be his perfect girlfriend who can understand his inner feelings, who can attend to all of his needs, who will be there whenever he needs me. but sad to say, its hard, damn hard. i can never read his mind.. can never know what he's gonna do next and etc. but he, on other hand, can determine what's my next move and etc. sometimes i just feel that i am such a failure, cos i can never be his perfect girlfriend if i don't even understand him well.
and that seriously sets me thinking.. about our future and e percentage of us getting married in e near future. its hard though cos none of us have savings and we don't really have e motivation to save up money. maybe cos i am feeling discouraged thus all e negative thoughts started popping out once again.. i am just so stressed.. in dilemma.. and seriously in need of cash.. i am feeling so upset when i see him so hard up on cash.. yet, i just cant do anything to give him a hand..
i am just so irritated by my behavior yet again.. i hate my outburst and e urge of breaking down.. yes, i am blissfully in love, but does he feel e same too? or he's just faking e happiness as not to make me worried? i just have no idea.............
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