Monday, June 25, 2007
the soul is that aspect of who we are tt is most lasting. when e soul is attracted to someone n recognizes a mate, den with that person, cos we experience a soul chemistry, e physical, emotional, n mental chemistry can oso b sustained. lasting physical attraction must find its source in our souls. on e level of e soul, u are e same throughout ur life. u are u all of ur life. the soul is that part of u tt doesn't change. e way u physically look, e way u feel, n e way u think bout things, however, do change. the soul is who u are when u strip away e body, mind, n heart. ur soul has a potential tt takes an entire lifetime to b fully realized. when a couple are soul mates, when their souls recognize n love each other, den tis love not only can last but can continue to grow...
sadly to say, i have not found my soul mate yet. not that soon i guess. i am always wandering aimlessly on the same spot, as if waiting for someone or something. i always depend on my feelings of attraction n interest to find e right person. feelings of attraction n interest lead me into a r/s that meets our emotional needs. and once i got my emotional needs met in a r/s, my heart begin to open and i experience real love and intimacy. just as i get to noe my partner wif love, just when i thought i feel a deep soul love, e person will not turn out to b the one.
after so many failed tries, i am seriously discouraged. i am seriously feeling worn out and feel like trying no more. seeing all my frenz getting attached, getting married is such a turn off sight for me. i just dunno how to describe my inner feelings. some way or rather, i am of cos feeling happy for them.. but another side of me is of cos me going green with envy. i hate reacting tis way, but i really cant control myself. i will ask myself plenty of times why cant i get someone who truly loves n dotes on me? why i tend to get deceived all these while. mayb i shld really just let go.. i am really sick of heartbreaks n those sickening tears. i have enough.
[i need a break; utterly..]
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[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
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