Thursday, September 6, 2007
i am so not me lately. i am feeling grumpy and moody all over. i am not happy, not at all. i felt this way purely cos e "critical" times of e month is here again, or cos of something else? i have no idea, totally clueless.. i am having e same routine everyday.. like a zombie.. but i know deep down in my heart.. i am still waiting.. wanting that special someone to b back by my side..
have been kinda busy lately.. slogging at work, clubbing on weekends.. occupied myself with tons of activities in order to get him outta my mind. but i failed; utterly. i will still miss him even when i have only a min of rest. i just cant seem to stop thinking of him.. my mind is overwhelmed with images of him.. told baba n rah that i am moving on.. wanting to give others a chance.. n i am gonna forget bout him.. but yes.. those are just words.. just wishful thinking of mine.. cos all these sleepless nights proved that i still love him.. n never will b able to forget him.. everytime when i meet up with him.. i will feel blood rushing to my brain.. giving me this feeling that as though i am in love all over again.. maybe i will just stop meeting him.. maybe in this way then i will truly able to forget bout him.. but of cos all these are just assumptions.. i doubt i can achieve that aim.. nothing seems to work anymore.. my love for him grows deeper each passing day.. arghs..
as for e others.. what can i say bout them? zhiwei is still as sweet as ever.. seriously speaking, he will be e 2nd guy i love e most.. even though he's serving ns at e moment, but he will try his best efforts to accompany me whenever he has e time.. i truly appreciate everything he has done for me.. he's e one who make me experience love once again.. as for william.. he's giving his very best shots too.. came all e way to my workplace just to accompany me for lunch, msging me without failed everyday.. showering me with his care and concern..
yes, i know.. they are both great guys.. but.. i just cant forget him.. i just want him.. i dunno what spell he has casted on me to make me fell head over heals for him.. after all these months, he's still e only one i wanna be with.. i just love him.. so so much.. =(
sometimes i seriously hoped that he will just b frank with me.. whether he's still in love with me or not.. occasionally i can feel his love, vaguely there.. but sometimes his actions just pissed me off totally.. i just want to know how he really feels towards me.. is there any ways to find out? ahhh.. i need some guidance please..
[moving on or staying put?]
-devotion;-
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
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