Monday, June 9, 2008
at first i thought.. everything will be over... the stuffs which i dreaded to happen happened.. i stared at e message with mixed feelings.. really scared to scroll and read it... my heart was thumping hard, hoping that all these was just a joke... a nightmare... but in e end... it wasn't...
tears started streaming down my cheeks.. called him, asked him why of e sudden decision.. he claimed that he has been thinking bout it hard and long.. its not as if he made up this decision just lately.. disappointed and utterly hurt, confronted him why didn't he let me know earlier? is like giving me somesort a hint or some mental preparation.. e reason for his decision - my insecurities and doubting behaviour.
but it really came too fast.. i remembered he called me just last night, sounding so sweet and loving.. yet, e next day came e terrible news which crashed my whole world.. i don't want to let him go just like that.. i love him damn dearly... and i want to be with him like forever... i just can't let our love fades like nobody business... he's like everything that i ever wanted.. he gave me my fairytale, and never will i let go of this fairytale of mine..
had a heart to heart talk with him.. came to a decision that we will make this r/s works.. am glad that that's e final decision.. at least i can still stay by his side... to be in his embrace n etc.. am going to give my best shot and gives this r/s a final go... and hopefully everything will turn out e way i wanted - always a fairytale.
just hope he can really understand how i feel for him truly.. he's really e one i love at e moment.. and i really cherish him to e core..
just hope he won't bring up that fatal word so easily next time... hopefully there wun be any more next time.. *praying hard*
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
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