Thursday, June 19, 2008
i am feeling so fat! i have gained weight tremendously!!! really have e phobia to step onto e weighing scale... but i did eventually... and of cos, to my dismay, my nightmare has become reality! has been eating nonstop lately.. can always feel my hunger and e crave for food is driving me nuts.. not sure what has caused my big appetite.. i can gobble down a cow almost every night.. but of cos after eating all those food, i will feel guilty and will try all my ways and means to stop myself from feeling guilty.. sometimes i really believe that i suffered from eating disorder... shall not elaborate any further...
guess i shall visit e gym frequently yet again.. but seriously if i can't control my appetite, e frequent gym's visits wun make any difference either.. i had tried so hard to shred those extra pounds last time.. but now.. just a few late night suppers and a few treats to e junk food... my weight has bounced back... seriously, am just feeling so lazy to go to e gym.. i really need more motivation to get my lazy ass moving.. just hope i can cut down on my eating habits asap.. and of cos lose some pounds here and there in e shortest time..
yao contacted me on msn just moments ago.. am relieved that everything has been going fine for him at usa.. am also damn pleased to announce that he's going to buy me a psp! heyhey, i waited long enough for that! finally am getting my hands on that psp! *laughs*
jp contacted me once again.. telling me stuffs that i used to like to hear.. but of cos, all these don't mean anything to me anymore.. whats past is past.. let bygones be bygones.. no matter how many times he apologizes.. e harm has been done.. nothing can make us go back to what we used to be.. moreover i am happily and deeply in love right now.. so yea... me and him are history!
lately baby has been too busy to accompany me... and all e lovesickness is driving me crazy.. even though i am displeased with e current situation but i will try... will try my very best to be his caring and considerate girlfriend.. i know he has already tried his best.. calling me whenever he's free and etc.. truly appreciate everything he has done.. so right now, i can only put myself in his shoes and try to be sensitive towards him.. i will try... my very best... =)
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
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