Tuesday, November 4, 2008
everything seems so unreal for e past few days.. is as if i am living in a whole of illusion, or rather i just don't feel like waking up to face e reality. i lost him, for that period of time, for good. heart wrenching... trying very hard to make things right.. i failed at e moment... discouraged for that few moments, but for e sake of our love, i braced myself up, willing to give it a try yet again..
e day after e major quarrel, he initiated a break up... went over to his place at 6am, sat there in a daze.. holding e packet of breakfast, watching e time goes ticking away.. and finally after e few hours of waiting, i saw him! pushed myself forward to him.. wanna just cling onto him and never let go.. overwhelming with mixed emotions, i started to lose control.. told him my inner feelings, hoping he will come back to my side.. but i failed, totally... he wanted to remain as friends, very gd friends, and thats it..
but one discouragement is not enough to bring me down... yesterday went over to his place again.. at first he seem pissed to see me.. in my heart i was cursing aloud, scolding myself for blowing this chance yet again.. but eventually everything was fine.. he hoaxed me to sleep, cooked for me when he learnt that i was sick.. pampered me like his precious once again.. but i need a definite ans.. i need to know whats e status between us at e moment.. and finally, i got e answer that i wanted! i got him back! and hopefully for good! spent a night over at his place.. and everything was lovey dovey once again...
and i hope i have learnt my lesson this time round.. and i seriously wish that i can change for e better, and be his sweet and caring gf forever.. i am willing to do anything just to be with him, and i was extremely happy to have him back again! i will cherish him, definitely.
and thanks to hua, ting and heng.. thanks for standing by me when i am down.. thanks for encouraging me.. thanks for everything! truly appreciate all e help!
-i am a happy gal once again;-
[[*.i hartt euu, foreva n eva.*]]
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